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Today they called me from the court. Tomorrow the 9th I have an appointment and I'm terrified.

I sell all the souvenirs and items that I could not liquidate when I closed my business, a stationery bookstore, to be able to pay all my debts and return the money borrowed from my parents, since thanks to them I have a roof over my head and a plate on the table.

I had to close my store three years ago. Since then I haven't earned anything. I can't find work, because when you're 50 years old all the doors close, professionally speaking.

Thirty years of experience is of no use.

Today, 03/12/24, I went to ask for the 52-year-old subsidy and I am not entitled to it because I have contributed as a self-employed person for 30 years and must contribute to the social security regime.

Even in this I am a failure.

I have to pay all the debts I acquired to try to save her. My creditors don't understand anything and the threats are constant.

I never bought a house, a car, or started a family, obsessed with my work. Now I'm selling what I have to see if I can start again.

Maybe for you they are worthless things, but for me they are. If I sell my dismissal from a part of my life, I do it out of necessity, there is no other option, I am tired of so much threat.

Let's be honest. It is unlikely that he will ever sell it. I'm not famous, they only know me in my house, the neighborhood and thank you, but there can always be someone altruistic or someone with money who feels identified and wants to help me. Nothing more.

We begin.

I do it with something that is very valuable to me: my hair. It was very difficult for me to let it be long, I don't have the patience but I've had it like this for more than 20 years. He hasn't been able to go to the hair salon for 4 years, they are 60 centimeters long, with brown hair and gray hair. It is clean and cared for. I'll cut it if I sell it.

Another thing of sentimental value are the 10,000 family photographs in color, black and white. It is our daily life. Weddings, communions, excursions, birthdays, etc. It dates back to the 40s to the present day. Of course the photograph of the deceased, the great-grandmother is my father.

I also say goodbye to the notebooks that were supposed to tell great stories and are still empty.

01 Fantasy pink spiral-free A-5 notebook

01 Danone pad

01 Notebook A-6 without fantasy pink spiral

01 Gothic Notebook A-7

01 A-5 notebook with Gorjuss spiral

01 Ingraf classic A-5 grid notebook

03 A-7 grid notebooks with spiral Moos, Benetton and Red Girl

01 post car spiral-free notebook

01 white notebook without spiral Santo Jordi 2016

01 notebook a-7 squares 3

01 notebook a-7 grid noa

01 Agatha mini notebook

Or those pens that were supposed to capture them

150 fantasy pens

Those bookmarks that I kept to remember where I stopped reading

150 point board books

25 Disney bookmarks to paint

Digital books have arrived and on my USB there are more than 20,000 books in different formats and themes in Spanish.

Despite working every day, there was a time when I thought I would go out and buy jewelry.

01 Ladybug fantasy jewelry earrings

01 Children's fantasy jewelry earrings

01 Black ball fantasy jewelry earrings

01 Set of pink fantasy earrings, necklace and ring jewelry

01 Black ball fantasy jewelry necklace

01 Fantasy colorful jewelry necklace

01 Necklace geometric figures colors fantasy jewelry

01 Necklace geometric figures classic fantasy jewelry

01 Colorful hippie fantasy jewelry necklace

01 Buddha necklace fantasy jewelry

01 Fantasy Cross Necklace Jewelry

15 fantasy watches are missing batteries

15 Thimbles decoration

When I removed the furniture from the store, coins appeared and I kept pesetas as a souvenir.

COINS

39 out of 25 points

1 of 2000ptas 1994

2 of 500 ptas 1989

15 out of 100 pts

68 of 5 pesetas.

9 of 1 pesetas 1980

3 of 25 pesetas 1980/1983.

3 of 5 pesetas 1957/1984

7 of 1 pesetas.

1 of 10 pesetas.

5 of €2

2of 1€

1 bill of 5000 pesetas.

2 1000pta bills

1 coin of 5 pesetas 1949 in very good condition.

1 coin of 0.20 CT from Cervantes 1999

1 €12 coin from the presidency of the European Union Spain 2002

1 5 cent coin France 1999

In total there are 159 coins and 3 bills of different values. There are worn coins and others in good condition.

I started collecting figurines, stickers and small stuffed animals.

14 Kitty Figures 3cm

09 Caveman Figures

01 Aviator Bear 16 cm

01 Bear with raincoat 16 cm

01 Pink bear keychain 13 cm

04 Fido Stickers

12 Snoopy Stickers

17 small postcards

This is what I'm left with. It still has the tags

02 unused glasses with straws

01 Album for 200 photos Jordi Labanda

01 Album memories of Gorjuss

02 Shoes foot 38

01 Flip flops foot 32

01 Flip flops foot 28

01 Golden bag

01 Rabbit wooden photo frame

02 Wooden wall photo frame

01 Wooden table frame

01 Shoe foot 40

02 Elephant wall photo frame

02 Month Elephant Photo Frame

08 Figures to put jewelry

10 two-color pencils

01 UNICEF Dominoes

07 Hallmark Christmas Postcards

03 Bicycle themed paintings

I also sell four handmade wool sweaters. I've only worn them once

01Handmade double-color wool long-sleeved sweater

01Handmade pink short long sleeve sweater

01 Handmade orange sleeveless fine wool sweater

01Handmade green and yellow short sleeve fine wool sweater

01 Party dress with jacket, I have only worn it for a wedding

Encyclopedias

10 Volumes of the Plaza&Janes Encyclopedia Dictionary collection

12 Volumes from the collection The Spanish Civil War by Hugh Thomas

10 Volumes from the collection History confesses by Ricardo de la Cierva

34 Volumes of the collection The Spanish Civil War month by month 2-3 missing

05 Volumes from the collection War and Revolution in Spain by Georges Soria

Paper clips

01 Yoigo iron paper holder

01 Kit Kat plastic paper holder

Besides

01 Plastic drac ball keychain

01 Handmade ball earrings

02 Tenerife Keychains

01 Skull keychain

01 Min Keychain

50 cards to make Cocktails

01 Paper mache bear

01 Ladybug brooch

02 Easter Figurines

01 Puca Figurines

02 Soldier and shepherdess figurines

03 Colorful necklaces to put your glasses on

01 Tenerife small calendar 2009

01 Nokia Mobile

06 Down Tarragona association calendars from 2012 to 2019

50 unopened stamps from Poland 70s

200 photocopied images of children's drawings.

22 Santoro postcards

06 Kimmidoll Postcards

20 Gorjuss Stickers

09 Jazz Cd Louis Armstrong,Ray Charles, Duke Ellington, Ella Fitzgerald,Billie Holiday,Django Reinhardt,Count Basie,John Coltrane,Charlie Parker

I send it wherever I need the money, although it is not right to say it.

If you want to continue reading, I'll tell you the history of the store and how it all happened.

But thanks for everything.

I start

Since I was fifteen years old, I left school because I suffered bullying, something that at home they did not understand, since they believed that it was no good for studying, so my mother, fearing having a lazy woman at home, started a business, which for obvious reasons It was just at times, but I loved it and little by little I was falling in love with my business.

We had newspapers, candy, stationery, toys,...it was a small store, it had previously been a clothing store, so we used its shelves and little by little we expanded it, with a photocopier, toys and all the stationery items.

Curiously, we only had the books in Sant Jordi, because the truth is we are in a working neighborhood and the cover of Pronto was and is more important than Ken Follet's latest book, even though it pains me to say it.

It was a daily job since having press we opened every day and being a family business we all got involved, even my grandfather who would go down at six in the morning to go deliver to the surrounding bars, so that everyone would have the news. first thing in the morning, whether it was raining, snowing, hot or cold.

You may think that I was an exploiter, not to mention I have a family that does what they want and I am no one to order them, so my grandfather did it because he felt like it, nothing more since if one day I abused and went later it would cost him very little in telling me.

When we had been there for ten years, after going through our first economic crisis that was in the nineties and that very few people remember, the opportunity arose to change premises, we simply went around the corner, from being on a side street we passed to the avenue.

I really enjoyed it there since I set up the store as I wanted, the place was not very big, just 44 m, but very usable, I expanded as I wanted: books, more toys, more gift items, I set up a fax machine, I started charging by card, The press expanded… An enjoyment, that without realizing it the years were passing by and opening every day the few friends I had were lost and the new ones saw an inconvenience on Sundays since in good years it closed at three in the afternoon.

An intimate fact when I considered having a child at the age of twenty-eight, without a partner I saw it as so impossible because of the store that I gave up this dream. It was one of the many NO's that I have received, but over the years there are other illusions that erase impossible dreams and little by little my only illusion has been the store.

One October sales began to go poorly, although we were making, they were not very notable losses but slight ones, even then we were already fighting with the call shops regarding mobile phone charges and photocopies, not to mention our great competition: the Chinese bazaars, impossible To equalize, they play in another league.

One Sunday I realized that fewer and fewer people were coming, so we shortened the hours, then I realized that the same people always came so we did like at school, we took roll call and when they came we all left.

We were not about to close the activity since we sold the other days, but on the weekends there was no one left in the neighborhood, so we decided to close.

For me it was like when you are in a warm bed, on a winter day, you have to get up and you only ask for five more minutes, because my five minutes to not close on Sunday lasted four years, until finally my family gave up.

It was March 2016 and it was an illness for me, because I had been working every day for twenty-seven years and I didn't know what to do.

I had to give a thousand explanations, the most curious thing was to people who never came, but I was in a neighborhood and it is normal for them to ask everything and I honestly told them the truth that sales had gone down.

A client even told me not to go to breakfast, I told him that a coffee with milk didn't make the cash register go up or down.

I moved on now with another Amazon giant, more feisty, but he could get along. An example: I had a Minie backpack for twenty-six euros, they for fifty euros, the same since I looked at it many times before saying it. Surely they sold it before me, simply because it was bought online and they brought it home to me.

Well now we come to the big mess and the real reason for this letter. I had to write all this so that I could be understood, that the sacrifices, the struggle, the renewal over and over again, that the towel would not fall because it could no longer be understood, would be understood.

The year I closed on Sundays, in the month of June a client came to me to propose that I sell her children's school textbooks, that she was going to bring me many mothers who did not want to go through the AMPA, that I take care of all…

Yes, I was very naive, very stupid, but I had no reason to distrust, it was a good client base, there was a lot of money invested and profits to buy in the next campaign, which was Christmas.

My big mistake, the beginning of the disaster, since out of about two hundred lots, I only sold thirty, adjusting the prices so that they were competitive, leaving everything in the warehouse but with payments at the door.

Solution? Loans, credit cards, whatever to be able to pay.

Other error.

I thought I would recover by Christmas, but it wasn't great either, since I couldn't buy much either and people weren't going to give away notebooks.

I was doing it, but I saw that money was coming in, but it didn't cover expenses.

What was happening? I sold as always despite paying the loans, but I didn't have enough for everyone.

One day I decided to look at the invoices for the press, since they had very recently changed distributors and the invoices were exorbitant, every week I paid thirteen hundred euros for the press, but where were the benefits, since I could buy less and less In stationery, the press ate it up.

Then I saw that the commissions were minimal, that there were things that for three hundred euros sold I earned two euros, subscribers that we did not charge... a disaster, but the newspapers were our revolving door, people came in thanks to that and although less and less, but they bought other things.

Other error

Ask my family for money and a lot of money, so that the press would get paid instead of cutting corners. There were months when I had to take my parents' pension, to pay them.

You may think it should have closed. I would have done it if I had seen that no one came to buy, but there was always something that pushed you to continue and I loved my store very much, because despite everything it had many possibilities...

Other error.

Due to pressure from my family, one day, tired of everything, I put out a transfer paper, thinking not only that someone would come, but that people would take the opportunity to buy more, but it had the opposite effect, people fled.

There were people who felt sorry for me, who asked me not to close, so in my chain of errors it occurred to me to do my first Crowdfunding, because I had read that several businesses had done it and it worked for them. At the same time, a video store in Barcelona did it and managed to save its business.

What did I get? Mockery, as I think I will achieve with this writing.

I kept going until August when the press issue was so unbearable that I finally left it, looking for other outlets.

The great phrase: Renew or die. I started bringing gifts. Original and different articles, to recover a business that was mortally wounded, but it was my life.

Not even the pandemic stopped me. I took a risk and opened, without masks, gloves, or anything. I had to move the business forward and pay. Health doesn't matter when it comes to debt.

My history with the people who were supposed to help me began to be terrible.

The director of La Caixa hid when he saw me, even the other employees when they passed by the store put their cell phones to their ears, like famous people do so that I wouldn't say anything to them.

I am not going to tell my story with a director of Banc Sabadell, because he is too strong to write it.

The director of BBVA did not attend to me, whenever I made an appointment she told me to tell the manager, when I always had dealings with her.

The previous director of La Caixa even told me that my father could die in order to collect insurance.

One of the assistant directors made me feel like I was violating him since every time I proposed a solution everything was NO, NO, NO. He even advised me to go to another bank.

In the end I had to close at the beginning of 2021 and another stage began, not as pleasant as I expected and have listed.

Thank you.