Publisher Description

In Now I Am Here, we begin at the end. The armies of the National Defence Movement have been crushed and our unnamed narrator and his unit are surrounded. Prepared for defeat at the hands of the enemy and with only his sins for company, he turns to confession. As he recounts the events leading to his disastrous finale, we learn how this gentle man is gradually transformed into a war criminal, committing acts he wouldn't have thought himself capable.Chidi Ebere's debut is a profound reflection on how good people can do terrible things - precipitated by circumstances and the violence of war. Unflinching, thought-provoking and devastating, Now I Am Here resonates far beyond the individual story of our narrator. Perfect for readers of Uzo Iweala's Beasts of No Nation, Giles Foden's The Last King of Scotland and Abdulrazak Gurnah's Afterlives.

Author Biography

Chidi Ebere was born and raised in Oxford and spent part of his childhood in Nigeria before returning to the UK. His short stories have appeared in UK Cosmopolitan, Ambit and West 8. He has also written on architecture and urbanism for Archis, Harvard Design Magazine, the Journal of Architecture and others. He now lives in Amsterdam. Now I Am Here is his first novel.

Review

Stunning and raw. I yearned, alongside this narrator, for the peace of undoing what has been done. -- Jackie Polzin, author of Brood
Clear, unsparing confession, with moments of insight, gentleness and even beauty. A powerful novel that traces the process of desensitisation, yet is seamed with tenderness. -- Kiare Ladner, author of Nightshift

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A powerful novel concerned with how good people can end up doing terrible things during times of war and conflict.

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